Give me an argument and I can write a wonderful paper disputing or supporting it. Ask for a story and I can give you one better than at least Dan Brown, if not many more respectable authors. On my free time I read, I write, I sew, I study languages, I study everything – I am a researcher by nature. If not for academic articles on the internet, I would have gone mad at work ages ago.

I am, in a word, a scholar. And I am good at being a scholar.

I am not good, however, at figuring out how to make money on being a scholar alone.

I could write, and I am, but that takes time. And while writing, until the writing starts to pay for itself and then some, I still need a job, which takes away time and energy. It’s sort of a small, vicious circle.

I could teach, but everyone is doing that right now and I don’t have a university certified teaching degree, just an alternative certificate, and while that would ordinarily work for me – seeing my gpa, my work with kids, and whatnot – I graduated during the worst recession in whatever amount of time and so everyone and their mother who’s lost their jobs doing things other than teaching have gone and gotten teaching certificates, and their old jobs gave them the one thing I need more than anything – the one thing I’m really missing: experience.

I could get a desk job, I could be a secretary, I could tutor, I could…I don’t even know! Because everyone says, “well, you’re lacking experience…”

I went and applied for a preschool teaching position at a place that doesn’t NEED certification, that has teachers that AREN’T certified, and THEY! THEY told me I don’t have enough experience! I was a nanny for six years! And a tutor for two! And, Jesus Christ, those kids are no older than FOUR!

WHAT KIND OF EXPERIENCE TO TEACH FOUR YEAR OLDS DO I NEED THAT I WOULDN’T HAVE GOTTEN FROM SIX YEARS OF NANNYING?!

*huff huff*

…

So, I’m kind of at a loss. I need a job that doesn’t require me to stand for eight hours a day, five days a week, with random days off . One that I can actually respect and respects me in return. Maybe that last part is asking much, but with my credentials I should at least be able to find a job that fits the first part of the description.

There’s also the factor that everywhere I go, the first thing the receptionist says upon my inquiring about work is, “you have to go to our website.”

Do you know how frustrating that is? I can’t even talk to someone without applying online first. To get a job is to play the numbers’ game, apparently.

Oo! My coworker and friend at the bar just made me a fruit smoothie! That is definitely a mood-lifter haha.

Anyway, that’s about everything I’ve been glum over for a while.

A-kon’s in two weeks and I’m so stoked. I’ve got half of my Misa costume together, Ranma is just about done although I might have to remake the shirt cause it’s a little tight, and I’ve already had most of my Death costume in my regular wardrobe. Just waiting on the wigs and the final touches and I’ll be good to go.

My affiliates may not be so ready… -_-
But they’re getting there. Still got two weeks, after all!